Merry-go-round of life.

[Break Free]

I've recently started the next level, and found myself in some overwhelm, which is ok, it's hard at times but there's growth too. But add to this, ending a relationship I had with this amazing woman I've gotten to know over the course of about 5 years, and fell madly in love with, so it's been a bit tough. The funny thing about this woman is that just as I feel I'm getting past the pain, something pulls me back, again and again. A mutual friend is trying to get us together again but I'm resisting because I know what will happen, I'll fall for her games again and get hurt, so no more. To be honest every fibre of my being is saying go back, it'll be differant, but no, some things just don't change.
All this got me thinking about my stuff, about people, about life. We go through life just following impulses, instincts, desires, needs. We're drawn to do things, be a certain way, think a certain way, why? most of the time we have no idea, we just do.
Sometimes life is like a merry-go-round, we get on and go round and round, only momentarily pauseing to catch our breath and then off again, round and round we go.
It's in that all too breif pause that we can get off the ride and stop going around, getting nowhere. Stop and ask ourselves why?, what's the point?, constantly repeating the same scenarios, the same mind games we all play, the same pain we put ourselves and others through.
It feels like trying to stop a following river with our hands and body, impossible, but with appropriate materials it can be done, one step at a time.
Same with lifes merry-go-round, it can be stopped, one ride at a time. The funny thing though, life and desires can put you to sleep so quickly, before you know it you're going round again. Every thing in you is saying do it, but a tiny voice, barely heard is saying no, stop, think.
Anyway I'm off the ride, I've run out of cash lol.
BF

[Anne]

Dear BF,
It certainly sounds like you went through a traumatic experience. But you seem to be pulling yourself back up into life despite it. I know it's tough, but, as Eckhart Tolle would say - you need to live in the Now, for this moment is all that you have.
If you just take each moment you have as a life giving blessing, I know you'll be fine.
I believe everything happens for a reason, and I know you experienced this because the Universe wanted you to be clear to meet your soul partner. I wish you much happiness and love in your life.
Stay positive and look upon each moment with an attitude of gratitude. It can create beautiful things in your life.
Anne

[M M]

BF,

"The funny thing though, life and desires can put you to sleep so quickly, before you know it you're going round again."

I thought that was very insightful of you. It's very true. More reason to learn to control our focus.

"A mutual friend is trying to get us together again but I'm resisting because I know what will happen, I'll fall for her games again and get hurt, so no more."

This is your true self talking. Trust your gut feelings and stay away from her. Trusting your intuition will keep you on the right path.

(by the way, I see you have you have posted twice. You know, you could always delete this one and keep the other - or not)